It was 9 years ago, since i involved as a part of organizing committee in vihara. Starting from basic voluntary position like cleaning, organizing letter, blood donation PIC, until more serious position as secretary.
I remembered that the days before vesak never this calm, endlessly preparation event a month before, and in the final day, 4 hour sleep is common thing. It happened until next 8 years.
As i moved from my hometown, condition never same.
A friend of mine always asked why i am not taking a part as a full time committee in this new vihara again, just like i did previously.
Instead, i became rarely come to pray at sunday, mostly at once a month.
Well, i really never try to figuring out, until i started to writing it in this post. At least there are three reason why i choose to move away for a while from extraordinary volunteer at vihara
1. My personal dream for achieving scholarship, while a spent a lot of my weekend studying ielts, making essay, completing application form, browsing information about scholarship, etc
2. I feel like to give myself some break. Having served as a committee and organizer all the 8 years endlessly, i feel little exhausted. that short pause may become good recovery process.
3. Freedom.
Stay in same organization thorough years not really bad at all, at least i can reach chairman youth position.
But, as i move to bigger city, i realized that there are lots of Buddhist organization here. In addition, exploring more social organization outside spiritual one.
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First mission has been accompalished now. In paralel, i was assigned into Menyapa Indonesia, social organization, so part of third mission has been accompalished to.
Also, 2 years break i think that was enough to explore around.
This year, 2016, at same day this post published, is vesak day.
I contemplate a lot about how being volunteer , its feel and experience.
A day before, i rejected the chance of being volunteer in order to accompany my cousin to get praying together.
Well, i feel very bad when declining the chance for the volunteering, knowing next year i am going to study overseas and thought about how much myself change has floating around my brain.
Thanks for today, i chat a lot with my cousin, introducing little concept about this unremarkable philosophy.
Volunteering can be anytime, but its worth as i share this gem of knowledge throughout the day.
Happy Vesak everyone !
May you all being happy